I’m giggly right now. Yes, I am. I also have a headache and my sinuses might explode at any moment. Yet, I’m laughing. My huge task for the week is DONE. DONE you hear me? Sometimes, I think we get so caught up in the drama mama of our problems in writing, we forget how wonderful it is when things are done. We simply don’t take the time to enjoy the completion of something. So, right now, I am.
I struggled this week between sleep, edits, and the new job. It wasn’t easy. Plus, I was doing research for a few upcoming writing segments. Can we say– overload, overload! I don’t mean that I put too much on my plate– just that I didn’t have all the time for everything I really needed to do. Plus, with the weather we had, my poor body hit a bad patch of insomnia and soreness. When fibromyalgia kicks up more– you either listen or you pay the price. I– I paid the price. Slowly, it’s going back to a manageable level, but since I’m now on track again– it won’t be so bad. It also means making sure I take my sleeping medication every night without fail. I can’t just forget a night until things are settled with work. My body is carrying too much stress from the unsettled day job to handle falling asleep on its own. I know– how is this success?
Because I recognize it for what it is. Stress and I go way back. We’ve been enemies and friends for years. Now, though– we’re strumming along working for a better resolution. I need some stress to be productive while less stress to be healthy. There are ways and I need to keep to them. When I do, I feel better and I can do more. It’s a matter of letting go the crap I don’t need to worry on anymore. My work schedule is a pain right now– I worry, but I have to let it go. It’ll be here soon enough and when it does, I’ll cope.
The big thing this week is that my edits are done! Done! *does happy dance around the room* This means I still have another round or two to go, but the big ones– the one that makes writers whimper and cringe– those are finished. Now, it’s small stuff. Fixing word choices, deleting overused words, restructuring new sentences that sound awkward. Those edits won’t hurt as much and honestly, I don’t mind those because I can do fairly quickly, though line by line read-through do take time. I love them though when it comes to making sure everything I’ve written makes sense.
Success is that tonight I can free write. I am doing this blog post, then I’m just writing for writing. Tomorrow morning I will get back to my Christmas story. Yes, I know I SHOULD do it now, but I have the luxury of making this choice. I deserve to pamper my writing self with something fun. Writing on spec, writing on demand is tough. I know the story, but that’s not the point. It’s important to me. But writing for fun, writing down ideas– that’s something I can do and enjoy. Hey, I might even write a chapter of my mystery tonight! That would be awesome! Celebrating this success is a big step because it means I’m rewarding the fact I managed to get it all done when and how I said I would. I feel amazed, thrilled and happy. I kept my word. I didn’t fall down and fail. More importantly– to me—I kept the word count down even when I added two new scenes. That is a miracle!
So for the ROW80 update– I have conquered this week’s challenge. I’m on par for the quarter, so far. I’ve learned that one of my things has a deadline that’s tighter than I realized, so I might have to adjust for that or decide to take it off the list. I’m not sure yet. Either way, I’m schooling myself on how to bend and shift with the flow– not fight against it. I’m eager to allow myself to have fun. We won’t talk about the Paige Shelton book I read last night, because I might just cry on how good it was. Oh and the new Chloe Neill vampires of Chicago book– OMG good. Yeah, I started celebrating a bit early– but those were for completing the main edits themselves. Now onto the fun writing. Have a good one!