Cynnara Tregarth

Nikita glanced at Rand’s naked back. Though she’d won the bet, part of her wish she hadn’t even accepted it. But Sekhmet had told her that she would win. This time, Lyonene, high priestess of Sekhmet, would not be forced to beg for release- she would demand it.

“Once you’re done taking off your clothes, Rand, I want you to kneel with your head bowed, arms behind your back in a submissive position.” Nik opened up her play closet, allowing her gaze to go from each toy, mentally discarding the ones that she thought Rand wouldn’t enjoy. Choosing her favourite black, silver, and purple flogger with a mix of suede and rabbit tails, Nik did some figure eight moves in the air before her. This will be good for Rand. I think he’ll find this heightens his need in ways he hadn’t considered. More »

I had debated for a while on what to talk about when it came to sex, sexuality, and more. From toys to BDSM, I’ve either used it, done it, researched it, talked to people to know more about it. So, I decided with the help of some good friends that I should open up my Thursdays for weekly Sex Ed with Mistress Cynnara. This means that you can email me at cynnara AT cynnara DOT com (you know how to make the email work!) and ask anything about sex and sexuality. Be warned, the responses will be detailed, if possible, and quite blunt. So if you’re squeamish or haven’t experienced much sexually, you might be shocked.

So this week, we start with a question: What do you do if you have a higher sex drive than your husband? What can be done so I don’t go insane with sexual need when he doesn’t feel the same? More »

I love making apple butter, even though it takes a long time to make. I also have a crock pot version I’ll post later too. But here’s the recipe my gramps followed for years with his slight modifications. *grins* You’re lucky– I don’t change the recipes as he did when he gave them to others. LOL More »

Mabon this year is going to be hard. Just like the other holidays, this will be my first without my mom. But this holiday is my mom’s and I holiday. We have always bonded over 2 things- food and jewelry. History, too–but not as much. For us, there was nothing like making food together or learning how to make some of our favourites while she talked about growing up. More »

I’ve been set back a bit of late. Some rejections of some ideas, some ideas that need to be followed through, but I realized something– part of me knows what I love to read, but not what other readers are wanting. What’s hot? What’s not? What’s selling so-so, what’s blowing out the door?

I know that m/m sells. Yes, I’d like to write m/m, but that’ll take time. I love writing menages. I need to write more. I also want to write more dealing with fantasies. Those fantasies that women want fulfilled in some way and men would like as well. Perhaps that’s the main thing I know– deliver a woman’s fantasy and be able to know that you’ve done well.

But what do readers want? Tell me. I’d really like to hear.

I support www.one.org. I support it fully because of what it means not just for America, but the world. Take the time to watch the small commercial– it’s 38 seconds– time we can all give to think on what’s said, and what we can do united.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_CvW42MC-14

I’m writing this post today, sitting at my male’s house. Yes, my male. Thursday night, I broke down and called him. There were so many things between us, so many things that couldn’t be explained away by what happened on Tuesday, that completely and utterly fearful, I picked up the phone and called his number. First words out of both our mouths at the same time were, “How are you?” More »

Yesterday, my male and I broke up. Right now, I’m feeling empty and the heartache won’t go away. I’ve spent the day today making my doctor appointments, joining the Incredible Shrinking Authors, and sleeping. I’ve slept over 8 hours today, not including the passing out last night from the pain. More »

One of the abiding tenets in most pagan belief systems is that of understanding, acceptance, and compassion. Most of us want these things. Most systems give a way to bring other ideas into play without feeling compromised. Even the Celts made way for Christianity and incorporated aspects of it in their ways. That’s just how most pagan systems are set up– to be accepting of change and understanding of other aspects.

One thing lately that has been pushing at me is that other people have asked me how I can believe in so-called dead gods. I remind them one thing– dead is only in the eye of the beholder. Just as speaking a name gives power, so too does offering and worship. To me, the gods aren’t dead. I see them every day in all I do. Whether it’s greeting the dawn or walking in a park, or even at work at the computer- the gods are there and they enjoy that they’re known. In some ways, it’s the easiest thing in the world to know that you can worship as you wish. Sometimes it’s hard because it makes it difficult to worship.

I believe in understanding, acceptance, and more importantly, in compassion. Those who don’t believe as I do, they are okay. They aren’t wrong, but neither am I. I worship in a way that is best to me and my beliefs, just as they do. Next Monday, we’ll start on the Elements and how we are beholden to them most of all .

Today’s flash, which is a day late (but I had a migraine that was NOT happy with me being awake), is just a scene that came to me suddenly in the midst of doing something else. It was one of those moments where you just look from one character to another and go… “What the hell are you doing?!” So– for you all. LMAO Enjoy! More »